A Glimpse at my Thoughts...

ltnggoddess @ 2008-03-13T02:58:00

2008-03-13T10:01:50Z

Wow... I have not been on livejournal in such a long time. It's amazing what you find when you're online in the middle of the night, frustrated with writing a paper!

call me

2006-02-13T03:08:05Z

I have a cell phone for a couple months. e-mail me if you want my number. hope all is well with everyone, and again, my thoughts are with you and your family ellen.

ltnggoddess @ 2006-01-22T19:51:00

2006-01-22T09:00:37Z

No time to really update, but still living it up down here. Just got back from the Blue Mountains.....SOOOOOO AMAZING! Today we went on a hike that compares to nothing I have ever done before. It was one of the most physically challenging experiences I have ever had, and I made it. Actually succeeded very well. Not the best hiker, but not at the lower end of the group either. My physical abilities have been challenged, and my limit raised. I am exhausted, but on such an amazing high right now from the whole experience. Cheers Loves!

This is the life.

2006-01-12T04:00:23Z

Hello loves! I'm having an amazing time, and I have not even been here a week yet! Classes are so chill and laid back which is awesome. The lack of nightly homework makes my afternoons and evenings free. Also, we have no school on wednesdays so there's pleanty of time. (But sometimes we do have class on weekends). The group is awesome, and we hang out a lot together. I'm really glad we all get along so well, and want to hang out. We have gone out to bars and clubs every night which has been a lot of fun. spent quite a bit of time in downtown so far, but the house we are staying at is about a 40 minute walk to downtown. at first I was disapointed about the distance, but now I think it's awesome. Everything is still accessable, and there is a lot right around our place, and the view of the city from our roof is great. The weather has been in the upper 20s, and yesterday went into the upper 30s. I love that it is summer. Great fun. Tuesday after class a group of us went to Bondi Beach, just to hang out. Then yesterday on our day off went back down to the beach. 2 days of swimming in the ocean, sunbathing, and hanging out at the beach was wonderful. We got thunder and lightning yesterday too, which was neat. I'm at the library to get research for my paper done, so I should probably get back to that. Toodles! Miss you guys.

ltnggoddess @ 2006-01-01T09:17:00

2006-01-01T17:17:45Z

Happy New Year Everyone. Hope you had a fun and safe time bringing in 2006.

ltnggoddess @ 2005-12-24T21:21:00

2005-12-25T05:21:22Z

Does today really have to be over so soon?

big grin

2005-12-14T07:13:32Z

I am sooooo happy right now! Earlier today I finished my last final. It was a papers for my theories class. I spent forever on it, but it's done now and that's all that matters. The semester is officially over. Katy came over for dinner, and we got to hang out. We had cheese fondue, which was awesome, and then a chocolate fountain. It took a while to get it going right, but it was cool anyway. I can't believe my mom bought a chocolate fountain. She's dangerous when she goes shopping. Then we did parafin (spelling?) wax treatments on our hands, and just hung out. I'm going to miss everyone from campus. And after I got home from dropping Katy off back at campus, Jason called, and I get to see him this summer, and I am soooooo excited, it's going to be absolutely great. But even before that, he's coming to visit in 11 days and counting. Oooo, and earlier I got a call from one of my bestest friends in the whole world, and she sounded really excited and said she had "big news for me..." Hmmm, the possibilities.

Distractions = sanity

2005-12-10T04:48:09Z

Wow, only four more things to do this semester. It sounds so much nicer when I say it that way...only four, and don't go into detail about what the two papers and two exams I still have to do require. Anyway, yesterday we had our last Australia Orientation meeting to go to. Debbie (the professor leading the trip) decided to have a "holiday" party/potluck at her house. Extremely bad timing on her part. In the middle of the day, on one of only two reading days before finals...and we all have to drive out to her house in SE Portland. The meeting was alright, but what made the whole even WONDERFUL was the detour that Kelly and I took on the way. There was no traffic on the way out there, so we made it in under half of the time that my mom recomended we give ourselves. So we decided to spend our time at a park off of Powell. Man I miss PLAYGROUNDS! Swings, teeter totters, slides and a merry-go-round occupied our time, and provided just the distraction I needed to make the trip out there worth it and help get me through all the stress of preparing for finals.

ltnggoddess @ 2005-11-28T16:33:00

2005-11-29T00:35:09Z

I have not posted anything in a very long time. Wow, I guess since the GD concert. Well, even now I’m not sure there is anything particularly interesting going on. School is …school. Not much new there except that the countdown keeps getting smaller. While I really want this semester to be over, it’s really scary how fast the end is actually coming. And more importantly, all that I have to do before then. Looking back at this semester there are a lot of things that I wanted to have done by this time, but there are still a couple that have escaped. This semester I wanted to start focusing on ideas for my thesis next year, but that really has not happened. I really have not sorted much out in my mind. Oh well. This past weekend (minus the work on papers) was actually really great, and gave me some things that are going to help keep my mind off of the stresses of the end of the semester… Jason is unexpectedly coming home for Christmas, and that makes me really happy. I’m currently working on four quilt projects that I just picked back up on Sunday. It’s nice to be sewing again, and I really like that I am making them for people. Three are baby blankets, who would have thought they’d all be coming at once. I made a quilt (my first) a little over a year ago, and it has been missing for about 10 months…but I found it yesterday! Thanksgiving was good. It was fun to see cousins, and that side of the family. We only see them all about once a year, but for a number of reasons that’s alright. As crazy as last thanksgiving was in New York I really missed it, especially Nate and going to his house for the holiday. It did not help that I went to see Rent (the movie) this weekend. Not only did I keep having flashbacks to the Broadway show, but also it brought back so many memories of the people I got to know there, and so much about the city itself. Alright, back to work now, and then to class. Hope you all had a good weekend. -K

I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies, This is the dawning of the rest of our lives...

2005-09-29T08:24:59Z

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

... THAT

WAS

AWESOME

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Countdowns...including today

2005-09-23T01:36:12Z

...3 Days 'til BEACH RETREAT
...7 Days 'til GREEN DAY CONCERT
...10 Days 'til THE LION KING

FUN TIMES!

Down Under!

2005-09-09T03:42:39Z

Oh my g-d! I am so excited right now I can barely sit still! Haha, I just went to my Australia orientation meeting… it is going to be such an AMAZING program, I could not stop smiling. I can't even get over it. We do so much more than I was expecting and I am totally adding on a trip to Fuji and New Zealand no doubt. Yay, I get to live in Australia for like 4+ months. Oooo, and I just bought tickets to The Lion King, which is coming to Portland, so I get to see a Broadway show soon. I have been going through withdrawals. I wonder if any of my friends are in the touring cast. That would be so cool. 3 of my friends in NYC have been in the Broadway show, so there's a possibility. Oh yah, and its Thursday, which is like Friday for me…which is WONDERFUL.

Save Tonight-Eagle Eye Cherry

2005-07-19T07:08:26Z

Go on and close the curtains
cause all we need is candle light
You and me and a bottle of wine
going to hold you tonight
Well we know I'm going away
and how I wish, I wish it weren't so
So take this wine and drink with me
let's delay our misery

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

There's a log on the fire
and it burns like me for you
Tomorrow comes with one desire
to take me away it's true
It ain't easy to say goodbye
darling please don't start to cry
Cause girl you know I've got to go, oh
Lord I wish it wasn't so

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

Tomorrow comes to take me away
I wish that I, that I could stay
Girl you know I've got to go, oh
Lord I wish it wasn't so

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone
tomorrow I'll be gone
tomorrow I'll be gone
tomorrow I'll be gone
tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight
Save tonight
Save tonight
Save tonight

sigh

2005-07-18T06:18:20Z

I feel soooo good right now. Everything except this haunting feeling at the pit of my stomach, that I know will distroy me tomorrow. But as of right now, I am still on such a high from this weekend. I went camping at Ka-Nee-Ta Hot Springs with Jason, Verina, Dave, Mike, and Stephanie. I was such a fun, amazing, wonderful, perfect weekend. It was so beautiful, and we could be as crazy as we wanted without a care in the world. I could have stayed like that forever...if only I could stop time and be able to hold onto those moments forever. I left early Saturday morning, and and got down there right after breakfast. We played in the pool, layed in the sun, back to the pool, went on hikes, went horseback riding, and more fun times in the pool all day Saturday. Today Stephanie, Mike, and Dave left really early, so it was just Verina, Jason and myself all day. As ackward as the circumstances this morning were, as I look back I could not have wanted anything different. It actually was really nice to just be the three of us all day. Such good times. It was so wonderful to be spending a weekend with someone that I care so much about. Jason is one of the people that I would honestly do anything for, and it breaks my heart to say goodbye tomorrow. I've been dreading this day for a long time now. I've felt it creeping up on me, and I don't even know where to begin to put into words what my heart is trying to say. All I know is that this weekend and everything about it will always be in my heart.

sigh

2005-06-27T11:51:33Z

Wow, it's almost 5:00 and I have been mentally working and physically writing for the past 3 days on my final, and I am just now becoming confident with the direction of my answers. Now that I have it all figured out and organized in my mind, I need to race to get the rest of my thoughts down. 2 1/2 hours in counting...damn.

This is the life...of a sleep-deprived college student

2005-06-27T09:54:03Z

Oooo yes, another night of no sleep, that makes 10 days ( in a row ) of 4 or less hours of sleep. Go me! AND starting tomorrow morning ( actually today ) at 8:15am I get to be in charge of 14 girls all in the 4/5^th grade for the week! This…This is going to be fun. ( aaaaahahaha flashback to ‘Guilty Pleasures’…)

Gotta end the semester with a party!

2005-06-26T05:40:05Z

I just got home from a party that was a lot of fun. Much more than I was expecting it to be. I won’t go into the morning, but this afternoon I was invited to Cecilia’s baby shower. Cecilia is my professor from the Political Science class I took this summer. She was/is great. I am so glad I took this class. Although I did not always like the intensive workload, the class was great, and Cecilia is awesome. It was really what I needed right now. After last semester, I really lost a lot of my motivation at school, and I was just plain tired of trying. Everything was just too much. Now I am thankful for the opportunity that this summer presented. I am actually feeling good about school again. She really is the one that changed that. Aside from being our professor, and teaching us about political science, she became a friend. I guess that’s what happens when you have such a small class. But more then that she let us into her life. Besides the work itself, we would talk about our things that were happening in each of our lives, and it really made the class enjoyable. I’m sad to see that part of it end. But that brings me to today. She invited us over to her baby shower. (It’s a boy, and he’s due towards the end of August). I wanted to go, but I was not sure how long I would stay because I really did not know what to expect. I got there early, (about 10 minutes after it was suppose to start, but there were only two of her close friends there), so I helped her prepare and set up. It was definitely more of a party atmosphere then what I was expecting for a baby shower, with friends (both guys and girls), and tons of food and drinks. It was great, there were people there from all different aspects of her life, but only two of her other students stopped by for a quick hello. What made it so special is that this was the first party I’ve been to with adults where they were a friend of mine, and my parents had nothing to do with it. They were not there, and neither of them has even met Cecilia. It reminded me in some ways of being in NYC. Here all of my friends, outside of peers or people my age, I know through my parents, and they have known me since I was very young. This is the first gathering here that I have been to with adults who only know me on an adult level. It was really nice, and cool to hang out with her in a totally different situation.

ltnggoddess @ 2005-06-24T11:46:00

2005-06-24T19:25:36Z

The Show Goes On: Amas Musical Theatre Moves to Greenwich Village
By Kenneth Jones
19 May 2005

Amas Musical Theatre, the Off-Broadway producing organization committed to training kids in theatre arts and developing new multicultural musicals, is moving its operation to Greenwich Village's Players Theatre.
The wrecking ball is coming to the company's 11-year home in the John Houseman Theatre Center on West 42nd Street. The move to administrative offices and rehearsal space above the Players Theatre at 115 Macdougal Street will be complete by June 1, producing artistic director Donna Trinkoff told Playbill.com.
Amas' new space above the Players is freshly renovated, and the 250-seat theatre below will be used occasionally for Amas projects. A six-week youth theatre training initiative will happen there this summer.
Amas' Rosetta LeNoire Musical Theatre Academy Musical Theatre Training Program operates at Town Hall in midtown on weekends.
Amas (the name is Latin for "you love") was founded by pioneering actress and humanitarian Rosetta LeNoire (1911-2001) almost 40 years ago. The peripatetic company started in 1968 in LeNoire's basement in the Bronx, then moved to a church on West 86th Street, then to its long-time home in a city-owned building on East 104th St., then to its residency at The John Houseman Theatre Center (under the patronage of producer Eric Krebs, Amas chairman since 1993).
Trinkoff said the Lab Series of developmental readings of new musicals "and possibly some workshops" will be seen at the Players. Full productions or co-productions will be booked at appropriate spaces, she said.
As a producer, Amas doesn't announce a season but stages full productions when they are ready to be seen — sometimes after staging developmental readings.
The company is one of the rare producing organizations that has an open submission policy for scripts, as long as they are multi-ethnic in theme and lend themselves to multi-ethnic casting.
"You never know where the diamond in the rough might come from," Trinkoff said of the open submisssions, acknowledging that "a lot of scripts come through our contacts — people who know our work."
The troupe's recent developmental or full productions have included SHOUT!, From My Hometown, Latin Heat, Four Guys Named Jose and the Broadway-aimed Lone Star Love, Zanna, Don't! and Stormy Weather, the Story of Lena Horne.
(Its presentation of SHOUT!, focusing on the songs of white-girl '60s singers Petula Clark, Lulu and Dusty Springfield, was performed by a multi-ethnic rainbow cast, lending a universal quality to the material. The show is expected to have a commercial Off-Broadway run in the coming year.)
The Amas Youth Academy's current production of Footloose, meanwhile, continues at Off-Broadway's Lion Theatre to May 22.
For more information about Amas Musical Theatre, visit www.amasmusical.org

I love not being stressed out, when I really should be...

2005-06-20T05:27:05Z

I honestly have no motivation to do any of the work I need to do for class, which is bad because I really do have a lot. I had set aside all of Friday to write a paper that I have due Tuesday and spent the entire day in front of the computer with absolutely nothing of any worth to show for it. I’ve been “working” on it this evening and I actually have the topic that I am writing about solidified but not much along the actual writing of the paper. I know this is REALLY bad, but amazingly I am not a bit stressed, and I have had a great weekend. I am just waiting for everything to catch up behind me and make the coming week absolutely hell. Yes, I once again find myself facing finals, but only one course this time around. Thankfully. So yeah, I have a paper due Tuesday (I need a decent draft to show my professor tomorrow), a book to complete reading and write a review about it due on the last day of classes (Thursday), and we will get our final handed out on Thursday. Yay for take home tests! The final is due on Saturday, lol, we get to turn it in when we attend our professor’s baby shower. I’ve really liked having a small class. The atmosphere is so much more intimate.

So, although unproductive, regarding assignments my weekend has been great. I got to talk to one of my best friends online twice, which was a wonderful surprise, and otherwise my weekend looked like this: Friday was spent in front of the computer “writing” a paper except for one break where I went outside to read.

Saturday morning, when I should have been doing more writing, was spent cleaning up my room and getting ready to go out in the afternoon with Jason. (I hate how anxious I was) Getting ready took a ridiculous amount of time, as I took a shower, got dressed, and then changed outfits three times before heading out the door. Then I met Jason up at Washington Park at the Rose Gardens. The weekend weather was supposed to be crappy, but it held out and despite a few clouds it was gorgeous. To add to the view, the roses are all in bloom this time of year…absolutely stunning colors. After a conversation resembling “What do you want to do now?” “I don’t know what would you like to do”, “I don’t really care, you decide.”---We decided to go to OMSI for the rest of the evening. Neither of us had been there for a long time, so it was a lot of fun and the planetarium show was pretty cool too. And later we went out to dinner.

Today I actually got to sleep in, then took my dad out to breakfast. It was just the two of us, and we spent the rest of the day on a long drive and ended up out at the Willamette River, looking at boats, and discussing what kind we would like to get to replace our last one. Then I made a nice dinner for us out on the barbeque. Great times, but oh man, now I really need to get working. Hope all is going well. Love and hugs.

An Update...

2005-06-08T16:33:47Z

Well, things are going fairly well, not exactly the fun, relaxation and free time I was expecting to have this summer, but that time will come. Thursday is my final in Hebrew, and I’m REALLY nervous about it. I need to get a good grade on the final and in the class overall. I am really excited for my class to be over. The ability of the other two students in my class is very high, and I constantly feel behind in the class. I don’t think my teacher likes me either. I am a good student, but she definitely has this demeaning look that she gives whenever I get and answer wrong or did not complete all of my homework (not very often) or something. Whereas the other two seem to get away with mistakes (although they happen less often) without any hassle, and usually a friendly response. It’s just uncomfortable. But it will all be over soon. I really enjoy learning the language, but I don’t think I want to go through the stress that I it has given me again next year. Beyond that, my Political Science class is going very well. It is a very intense semester, and pushes my comfort zone a bit in the classroom participation aspect, but overall is going very well. I really like the interactions of our small class (3 students), but it does make participation a constant. We have really gotten to know Cecilia on a personal level along with having her as the professor. So basically I’m doing well, although I am tired of the constant workload.

Outside of school, I am designing lights on a show, and we have our performance tomorrow afternoon. We are doing the Wizard of Oz with a highly involved special education class in a Beaverton middle school. Despite common feelings among my friends about Oz and everything that went on with that show :) ... I really love the musical and have so many wonderful memories from my various experiences staging it. The students I am working with are amazing and so dedicated. They honestly put in everything they possibly can to this project, they may not put on the greatest performance, but their efforts and how far they have come in their lives makes it so heartwarming to see them succeed. I am so glad I can help make the show come together.

Next week I will begin a summer job at Terra Nova Nursery. I’m excited; Dan (my boss I guess) is a great guy and a ton of fun to be around, and I will actually have an income.

Penny is basically stable lately, but not at a good level. At the beginning of her diagnosis she lost a little over one pound in about two weeks (which is 9% of her total weight) since her treatment she has not lost any more weight, but not gained like she should have. Her sugar levels are still at a level of concern, so she is not feeling great yet. Although I'm taking small steps, and I am going to take her in for her next blood workup.

Yep, that's about all folks.

kinda neat...

2005-06-05T21:00:15Z

Can you raed tihs?

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I love coincidences.

2005-06-02T06:03:46Z

My computer is finally back from the dead! Our desktop computer has been dying for about a year now, and right before I left for New York it would no longer connect to the Internet. Then about 3 months ago it completely crashed. I kept hope that it was not really dead, so about every other week I would attempt to turn it on (with no success). Tonight it came on, and after about an hour of working on it I finally everything working AND online. It is so nice to be able to have the convenience of the Internet back. Anyway, I had a great Memorial Day weekend. We left for Lincoln City on Thursday to spend the weekend at the ocean. It was really nice to be there, and the weather held out. I saw so many people out surfing, and I wanted to go out, until I remembered how cold the water is, and the fact that since we were staying in our motor home, I had no place to warm up afterwards. Maybe next time. Annnnnnnnd, fun coincidence... Jason (Morrill) happened to be camping at Devils Lake (in Lincoln City) for the weekend. We did not make plans to see each other, but realized when we talked on the phone that we were staying less than a mile from each other. Hope all is well with all my peeps.

Yay

2005-05-19T22:10:07Z

Yay, my car is back. It makes me happy, but now the rainstorms need to stop. ...And yay for 3 day weekends.

ltnggoddess @ 2005-05-15T12:55:00

2005-05-15T20:27:36Z

Penny, my puppy,(she's not really a puppy anymore, but I still call her one)has not been feeling well for about a month now. Not feeling bad, or in pain, but just not herself. So my mom took her to the vet about three weeks ago, and had some tests run. The tests came back saying that some level was too high, and that we were putting her on a different diet to try to figure some things out. What the tests really said was the my dog has Diabetes. With all the stress that I have been under with school, and finals and midterms, and everything else, my parents did not tell me right away. I am thankful for that, because I would not have been able to handle it, and my parents have been great at taking care of my dog's needs for the past few weeks. Anyway, me, the one person who falls apart at the sight/thought of needles, now has a dog who needs insulin injections twice a day. I am honestly hoping that I can get to the point where I can take care of my dog on my own, but I am a long ways from getting there. I really hope we can get her stabilized. She's been getting worse the past two days, and her most recent blood workup was not good. I'm really scared.

Have an AWESOMELY FUN and SAFE summer.

2005-05-10T17:49:08Z

I miss you guys soooooo much. It is so lonely here. Especially today, I came to campus, and it’s so empty. I got off the Raz, and all I could do was cry. I hate this feeling. Goodbyes are so difficult, and then afterwards you are just left...empty. I wish I was on my vacation right now, because then it’s me leaving this place also, not just watching everyone that I love leave around me. I don’t feel like I have anyone here anymore. The only people that I have stayed close with from Century are in the military (and stationed in various states and countries), or are living out of state. That makes it hurt so much more to see you guys go. I don’t have a separate group of "friends at home” to go back to. They just feel like acquaintances now. Time has separated us further. It has become apparent that the friendship we had was definitely not as strong as I had thought it was. Anyway, I have to keep going and I just have to remember that September is not forever. Oh Emily, you know I miss you tremendously, and next spring isn’t forever either, right?

A Glimpse at my Thoughts...

ltnggoddess @ 2008-03-13T02:58:00

call me

ltnggoddess @ 2006-01-22T19:51:00

This is the life.

ltnggoddess @ 2006-01-01T09:17:00

ltnggoddess @ 2005-12-24T21:21:00

*big grin*

Distractions = sanity

ltnggoddess @ 2005-11-28T16:33:00

I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies, This is the dawning of the rest of our lives...

Countdowns...including today

Down Under!

Save Tonight-Eagle Eye Cherry

*sigh*

*sigh*

This is the life...of a sleep-deprived college student

Gotta end the semester with a party!

ltnggoddess @ 2005-06-24T11:46:00

I love not being stressed out, when I really should be...

An Update...

kinda neat...

I love coincidences.

Yay

ltnggoddess @ 2005-05-15T12:55:00

Have an AWESOMELY FUN and SAFE summer.

big grin

sigh

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